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Last night I was sitting at the computer, Waverly was eating ice cream, Cannon was quiet. That should have been my first clue that something was going on. He was not on the Wii or tv or even asking for one of these to be turned on. He came over with my camera and said, " I deleted some of the dumb pictures." Great, I think, what does he consider dumb? "There were ugly ones of chairs and stuff." I am getting ready to put stuff on Craigslist which is why I have ugly pictures of chairs and stuff. So I asked him if he deleted pictures of people, his response, "just the dumb ones, like from Sully's birthday." Oh my heavens child! I looked at the remaining pictures and discovered what this precious child that I love so much had been doing for the past 15 minutes. Taking pictures of himself with his tongue out and/or finger up his nose and deleting EVERY picture that was not him or Waverly!

I did a pretty good job of not completely losing it on the child. No real sense in destroying the child over something that can't be un-done. I did tell him that I was sad, that those pictures are gone and that he can never touch the camera again. He cried. I felt bad-ish. Then we sat down and read the BFG.

I hope a lesson was learned, by both of us.

Sagging Sparkle

We bought a cute book for Waverly last week. It is all about a little girl who believes she is a fairy princess. She always wears pink, a crown and wings. The story is all about how she is a fairy princess and what she does to keep her sparkle. She does a couple of things to keep her sparkle from sagging.

I feel like MY sparkle is sagging. I feel like I do a lot of things but yet, I never DO anything. Nothing ever feels accomplished because I have to do the same things over and over again day in and day out. Some of the things I do can hardly even be noticed once they are done. I just feel a total lack of accomplishment. I feel like I am not doing anything of any worth or value. Yes, I know that taking care of my home and family is the most important and valuable thing I can be doing. And I love them and I love taking care of them. I hear those words and deep down I do believe it. I just don't feel it right now. Even that work won't show its true fruits for many years.

I don't even know what I want to do. Something that has an end and an accomplishment that I can notice. Something that makes me feel good and happy again, like I am more than a lady with kids and groceries in my car. I guess maybe something for me instead of someone else. Is that horribly selfish?

I like to make things look pretty. My house, my yard, my daughter :) I guess I am looking for a change. A change that does not cost a ton of money that I can do with my tag along Fairy Princess.

I feel like I am loosing me in the chaos and mundaness of my life. Can life be chaotic and mundane at the same time?

I want to empty out my house and get rid of all the junk. I want empty spaces. I want less. That would feel good! Can I convince my people? Should I worry about that?

My sparkle is sagging and I need to find away to make me sparkle again.

Frequent Flyers

A few of us have colds we are suffering with this week. Waverly has had a fever for a few days and has been yelling at her ears so I decided to take her to the doctor to check ears. Her appointment was at 10:20. The doctor checked her ears, found a big glob of wax blocking his view so he used a funky little ear wax scoop and cleared it out. Sure enough, infections in both ears. We headed to the grocery store pharmacy for her amoxicilin and yogurt. I put her down for her nap at 1:40 and immediately the phone rings. The elementary school with Cannon in the office complaining about his ear hurting. Cannon tends to whine and complain a lot over nothing. I told him to please be tough, school is almost over and I just put Wave down. I am sure they had me on speaker phone because the office lady ever so kindly, told me that they had had him crying in the office for 30 minutes already and he just needs to go home. Fine! I get to the school and decide to take Declan home with me as well so I won't have a conflict with the bus in case I can get Cannon to the doctor. I called the doctor from the car and after telling her our name she said, "did you have another child in here this morning?" Why, yes I did! So I had time to get Declan and Waverly home and Madsen to get home so I could leave them and head back to the doctor. The receptionist laughed as she asked if my address, phone or insurance had changed since this morning. The nurse asked if I had had so much fun this morning I couldn't stay away and commented how the doctor had been showing everyone Waverly's chart amazed that this was her first sick visit of her life. Then when the doctor came in he also laughed at me for coming back. Checked Cannon and sure enough, ear infection. He had had one in January in his right ear. This one is in the left. I made sure to ask if he was fine to go back to school so Cannon would hear it from the doctor that yes, he could go to school. Back to the pharmacy for round two of amoxicilin. The pharmacist also laughed at me and filled the prescription with a "you know what to do with this, but he needs 2 teaspoons."

At least our insurance is good so the doctor visits and the antibiotics cost me a total of $0!